I went to my Rheumatologist yesterday

BOOM. Perfect blood pressure. As always. Seriously, it's hilarious, because they always expect it to be high, because FAT. The only time it makes an increase is when it's taken while standing. Unless I stand too fast, then it makes a sudden plummet... Also, when I lay down, it just likes to go a bit too low. I freaked an ambulance worker out once when my BP was 80/34; poor man thought I was dying. He slammed this weird oxygen mask on me, and I am laying there trying to tell him, "Nah, it's okay, just prop me in a sitting position. My BP always does this when I'm laying down. I'm fine dude, it's okay!"
Because I keep having muscle twitches and pains, she's wanting to test my electrolytes and such. So horrible... I actually started to cry when I saw the needle, and I couldn't stop shaking. I'm such a baby. So stupid... They took I don't even know HOW much blood, and I guess they'll send me a letter with the results if it shows anything bad? I do have trouble getting enough sodium, because I try to avoid prepared foods, and I have this ... IDK, thing about added salt. When I make my own meals using whole foods, I simply can't bring myself to add in any salt. I know I should add at least a little, and when I pick up the shaker, I freeze. I stare at it, then slowly put it back, and eye it suspiciously as if it will attack me at any moment. From an objective pov, I know it's really batshit.
I'm moving slowly back to my obsession with drinking only water.
This is a bad obsession. I actually got seriously sick the last time I did that, because it was the only fluid I would consume, and I drank way too much of it at that time. I ended up with muscle spasms and my heart feeling like a fluttery bird. Drinking lots of water seems harmless and safe, but it can actually escalate out of control with me. Again, it's one of my stupid things.
So I'm 9 lbs down from the last time I was there. I didn't realize it. I was getting on their scale, getting ready to be yelled at for gaining weight, because I feel like all I do is gain no matter what I try. It was quite a surprise for me. She laughed at me when I said, "Wait, what, really?!" My back, hips, knees, ankles, etc still hurt... as do my hands, wrists, elbows, shoulders, and neck... so I don't know when I'm going to start seeing these magical Fibro (if that's what I actually have - I keep feeling like they are more or less just throwing names of illnesses at me, along with pills, rather than running any tests) Erasing results that weight loss is supposed to bequeath.