Would you rather be older or younger?

... Immortal? No, srsly... IMMORTAL. heheh, not possible, nor is this: I'd like to age back a bit though, to 21, because there's a lot of stuff I messed up on, & also I'd like more time to harass doctors to take me srsly about my health problems. I'm really scared to die from something stupidly stupidly stupidly preventable, all because I committed the grave crime of being poor & disabled.
It seems society hates disabled people, and even more so if they are poor.

Questions?